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[05 Feb 2007|11:18pm]
[ mood | super happy~ ]

I talked to Faye today!!! She called me from Canada using some cable phone thing [i hv no idea @_@ you'll just have to ask her]. AND SHE SOUNDS NICE ♥ Canadian accents are nice ^__^~ We talked for an hour and a half about everything and anythng that came up! XD lol. it was soooo darned fun! AND I got home from work today to find her package [of dvds] waiting for me!!! ♥ the reception ppl slipped it under my door ^____^ ahaha so it arrived right on my birthday! you've got the best timing ever~ lol. coincidentally XDDD

thanks faye~ *huggu*


****She sent me miyavi stuff in her dvd x__x along with SID clips, Rentrer lives, Laruku 15th anniversaty live, Yoshii Lovinson, Ayabie, HeaRt, Deadman, Mucc, an cafe, Kra, Dir en Grey, Death Note Movie, and lotsa scans!!! woo! ♥ She's making me listen to myv now. sigh =__= great.

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Friends Only~ [05 Feb 2007|12:01am]
[ mood | optimistic ]

To the moon and back, even the memory of today will fade and die like the wind...
~憶, Kagrra




| Kami Uta~ Friends Only | Image hosted by Photobucket.com



Original image taken with permission from Tori ♥ Thank you~ ^-^
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hate [04 Feb 2007|03:12am]
[ mood | morose ]

i hate people. i really do sometimes.
i no longer feel the need to mingle or talk or socialise unless i really like you or think you will be a good contact to have. nothing makes me feel better than being on the tram or bus alone with my zen. blocking out all noise from the other yabbing passengers. i hate people who talk too loudly in public places. or kids who giggle/talk loudly/scream at each other to attract attention. im a biased person really... sometimes. i know the kind of people that i like... and the kind that i dont *shudders* and those are the kind i ignore or step away from. i cant stand frivolous talk... what clothes/makeup/earrings you recently acquired or where the latest sales are. i dont care.

i hate it when everything i say, do, or THINK is immediately considered wrong. when people you thought were friends can so suddenly become stuff you dont even want to think about. i hate it when people jump into conclusions before putting themselves in your shoes... before understanding your situation and feelings at that moment. and there are those who brush off your worries as if they dont matter because they're more mature or better than you are. riiiight. sometimes it pains me to think that i have to get through certain days of the week just being around annoying people. ooo i feel like throwing things around >.< im fed up. need a break.

and then there are ppl like faye ♥ who made me feel all the better in no time at all. jv too ^^ its great talking to you guys.

my birthday is coming up soon. i dont wanna think about it since im alone in another country and dont feel like celebrating.

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playlist updated [21 Jan 2007|04:41am]
[ mood | indescribable ]

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[09 Jun 2006|12:00am]
[ mood | thankful ]

Rentrer has a new album out?
I didnt know...

At least I have Shaman downloading it for me already ♥ Thanks so much Shaman. THanks for the PVs too. I'll upload any music you want!!!! Pick anything from my playlist! ^____^

Ever grateful,
~ai

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[24 May 2006|05:49pm]
[ mood | bored ]

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Everybody... meet Fang~~ [17 May 2006|04:49pm]
[ mood | panicking!!! ]

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Procrastination no Jutsu at its finest [Lin version ^^] [02 May 2006|10:56pm]
[ mood | creative ]

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UNSANMUSHOU!!! [08 Feb 2006|01:28pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]

MY UNSANMUSHOU IS HERE!!!!!! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ it just arrived! OMG \^o^/ THANK YOU RINNAAAAAA~~~ *glompjrockwhalehugglesquishgnawgnaw* omgomgomg I wanna watch it now!!!!!!!! *o* Thanks Rin! I LOVELOVELOVE IT!

I turned 23 last Sunday ^_^ Its probably one of the few birthdays that was fun for me... Ok well, I celebrated it with my friends a day earlier [since I knew I was gonna be busy on Sunday, friends and I met up the day before ^^]. I had a medical check-up on Saturday morn, so I met up with friends after that for lunch in Mid Valley. Justin picked me and my sis up from home to meet up with Ron, April, and ET. Lunch was fun and full of insane stuff XD FUUUUNNNNNNN since we also had ET this time XD My Bitch is nice to annoy. hehehe. We bummed around MV after lunch... walking around and talking, taking pics and poking fun at other ppl or each other ^__^ Ron and April got me my very first Haruki Murakami book, and April made me a pair of flying piggy clay earrings too!!! ♥ And and and Just gave me a diamond heart pendant ♥ ♥ ♥ ^________^ thank you!!! *gnaws on u* And they also got me a tiramisu cake that I HAD to finish up ^^;;; yuuuummy tho ♥

ET had to leave not long after lunch and the rest of us decided to head over to April's place for dinner *thanks April* My sister and I wanted to escape a family friend's open house thing the same night ^^;;; nyeheheh~ We left MV for her place at about 4pm and watched some Studio Ghibli stuff to kill time while waiting for dinner ^____^ Dinner [with the rest of her family & relatives] was good ^__^ April has a carnivorous family hehee~ Suits me just fine! After that, we all saw her earring collection and stuff ^__^ my sis got a handphone strap made on the spot! XD [Mail me if anyone wants her polymer clay earring catalog!]. Justin drove us back at 10pm ♥

My "big bro" Andri called me from Singapore too ^___^ thanks Dre! I missed you alot. It was wonderful getting a call from someone wishing me a Happy 19th Birthday XDDDDD~~~ At least I [FINALLY] got past being always 16-yrs-old with Dre XD. Lol, nice that he always thinks of me as this lil sister kinda thing XD

I want chocolate chip cookiessssss~~~ Famous Amos ones would be great *big-watery-anime-eyes*

*****


Promise me tomorrow starts with you... getting high.....

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Nyeeh~ my ringtones rock!!! [01 Jan 2006|03:04pm]
[ mood | bored ]

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*licks* [30 Dec 2005|02:25pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]

It was Justin's bday yesterday ^__^ and yes, I was over at his place the whole day [though I was a lil delayed by my aunt ~__~ damn her]. We went down to MidValley first to pick up some last minute stuff [like drinks, cake, lunch ^^]~ and got back to his place to hang out for abit, went online & re-watched some Fumoffu!!! Its still darned funny after so long ^^

Justin, his dad, and Ben started bringing out the barbeque stuff at 6pm but didnt start till about 7pm 'coz Vic hasnt arrived yet ^^ We had pretty clear skies yesterday!! No rain even though its been raining endlessly since last month~~ The entire dinner was fun as almost everyone was learning something new from the experience [especially Vic; with his "does it expand or contract??" question~~ XD] ^__^ mmmm sausagesssss ♥ lol. Vic seems like a nice person to annoy >D muha. It was really really fun even though I smelt like smoke and food after that~ hehehe~ Justin's parents are cool ^.~

I hope Justin likes his present ^^ *hugs him* ♥


My Xmas lolly ^^ > http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v296/aitenshi/random%20pics/103_0367_2linslolly201205.jpg Mmmmm~ I need more of these..... [that's Justin's Wheel of Time book in the background XD I'm moving on to book 2 today!!]

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[16 Dec 2005|09:21pm]
[ mood | fed up ]

*stretches* I had another one of those Justin outtings again today ^___^ and I think we did fit ALOT in didnt we? ♥ I dropped by my old college [Methodist College KL] to pick up my LAN subjects exemption letter and then headed to Monash to pass that in [without which I wouldn't be able to graduate]. I went in with Justin ofcourse~ and we walked around campus after handing in my documents... It felt so different >.> Maybe I was already feeling the beginnings of nostalgia setting in but visiting the comp labs and cafeteria... felt... like I've left something behind. ^^ Probably good anyway.

After Monash, we went back to Justin's place to bum for abit~ Then his mom dropped us off at a monorail station to get to Low Yat Plaza [had to repair my laptop ^^]. I didnt get it repaired though, since the entire keyboard had to be replaced and I didnt have that much cash on me~ >.< sigh. Damn Compaq. Just and I
had lunch in Delifrance AND I MET UP WITH KARAT!!! XD It was funny 'coz we've never met before~ She passed me
the Fuunroku and Hisai cds ^^ THANKS KARAT!!! ♥ She also brought CURE mags ^^ which we went through! lol. She was pretty cool ^.~

After lunch Justin and I bummed around [in Sungai Wang and later at Times Square] till about 5pm. Bumming included lotsa going around anime/manga/collectible toys~ XD We saw some pretty gory voodoo dolls in Sungai Wang >.> and I think he wants to get me one........ *freaks* some were really scary. My aunts would probably burn them XDD lol, I have a damn weird boyfriend... He got a new 'toy' to play with while in Times Square XD, some flying disc thing that has a remote control to power it~ *pats the lil boy* Its cool and very fun to play with I must say~ hehehe~ We headed back to the monorail station after that~~ His mom picked us up again and Justin sent me home ♥ thanks luv~


My aunts and uncle are very pissed at me tho... and my uncle just made some very stupid comments. *sigh* im feeling pretty pissed and depressed now coz my family doesnt understand me. They dont want to relinquish control and dont seem to acknowledge the fact that I'm old enough to think for myself and make my own decisions. Im so fed up. So F***ing fed up. Its getting pretty bad this time... I dont know why they're making so much noise or why they actually want to control a niece! [im not even their daughter for god's sake]~ damnit. Im sick and tired of being here >< I dont know how much I can take anymore. I think i'll go to bed... staying up online isnt helping much... I need help. No. My aunts and uncle need help... Someone should just shoot them or something.

I feel so bad at times... Theres always so much problem over on my side >.< Just has to put up with all this shit. Shit he doesnt deserve... its such a hassle and it probably affects him as well >.< Oh I HATE IT.

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wrapped up in a love... [14 Dec 2005|05:13pm]
[ mood | great~ ]

the season is turning, it's a bit chilly on my skin
so I put on your shirt, too big for me
it's sorta sad the way I lie
every time we fight saying, "I'd be fine on my own"

you're warmer than any coat

I'm wrapped up in a love
that I'd searched so long for,
big and inviting, within your arms
hold me tighter, don't let go
I'm not one to act on how I feel,
but right now, I can't help but give in,
and nestle in close to you

we can't be together every moment
so when we can, my cheeks go red
my heart thrills at your every move,
which send me skyward... it's not fair.

I won't forget how happy I was, never.

I'd always aspired to become more beautiful
before your eyes, I wanted to be beautiful for you
I'm not very good at it, but what I wanted to do
was to cling tightly to you, give in and nestle in close.

I'm wrapped up in a love
that I'd searched so long for,
big and inviting, within your arms
hold me tighter, don't let go
I'm not one to act on how I feel,
but right now, I can't help but give in,
and nestle in close to you

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ame ni utaeba~ [07 Dec 2005|09:09pm]
[ mood | tired ]

Wow, talking to ET feels good after so long~ XD He's the super-bitch after all. LOL.


I wonder why I feel so insecure at times. Its probably just me... making things seem worse than they really are. Sucky that I can feel that way no matter how much I try not to~

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I appologise for not being online as much as before 'cause 1) my laptop keyboard has been annoyingly problematic. The up key is stuck and I cant type anything at all >.< Its frustrating and is a challenge just writing this entry~ 2) I've been busy/going out ^^;; Im sorry if I've been absent from your journals/communities/forums~ I cant do anything on my laptop at all which means I'll have to put Grainne's layout on hold >< I'm so sorry Grainne!!! Promise I'll get it done ASAP. I cant reply emails or update my blog/LJs much as well >.> I really NEED to repair my lappie >.<

*****

OH... its Isshi's Birthday today! And we sorta had an Isshimas of sorts online [with keizumi!!! ♥] ^^ lol~ *sparkling wine all round* To the most beautiful voice in jrockdom~~ Happy 27th Birthday Isshi-luv~ ♥ *clinks glasses* To Isshi! To Kagrra,!!!

**laptop too cranky to make bday banner >.< but you know I love you Isshi~~
Ayashi no Hikari ~ Kagrra, One of my most favouritest~ This gives off a dark moody feeling that Isshi's voice melds so well with~ Its mesmerising & beautiful ♥ Old Kagrra,~

***Im looking for this song: Parasite Eve ~ Somnia Memorias. Does anyone have it? *-*

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what the hell am i doing? [05 Nov 2005|06:57pm]
[ mood | amused ]

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Haha [04 Nov 2005|03:31pm]
[ mood | bored ]

My brother msg'd my handphone~ and I liked the msg XD :

Feeling really screwed now. Got a killer important paper on tuesday and im in Bacchus Marsh pickin n eating strawberries. Whole day gone!! Wanna dieeee!!!


*dies laughing* Death by strawberries. Good for you XD

View this!! ^__^

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[26 Oct 2005|10:30am]
[ mood | lonely ]

Even if you were a splinter embedded in my heart... I would never pull it out. Even if I could or had a choice~~


Harusaki Sentimental

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Have you heard? [16 Oct 2005|08:41pm]
[ mood | cold ]

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3) [29 Sep 2005|10:25pm]
[ mood | melting ~ ]

sigh. boredom. I removed some old files from my com and started torrenting once again~~~ I'm hooked on the Charlie and the Choc Factory OST ^__^ lol. Its really cute XD If anyone wants it, let me know and I'll upload it for you. Will probably be upping some stuff later as well *sigh* The Nightmare PVs are taking forever to download 'coz they're dvd rips =/

The weather is annoying meeeee .____. I feel like jumping into a pool right now and just soak for the rest of the day. And why isnt Rin & Lu online??? >.<


Another wallpaper change~ from this. Yes, my desktop is messy. And I want Aki's ~San~ picks >.<

*p.s. I have a field trip tomorrow from 9am to 4pm [roughly <.<] to the Ulu Langat River... which means I wont be online the whole day~ I hope its nice and shady there since we'll be doing lotsa sampling throughout the day =___=

**Seriously... Lab is nuts. Read me.


Need new music? GO HERE ^.~

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2) [25 Sep 2005|01:05pm]
[ mood | calm ]

Playlist updated. And Daniel won Msian Idol 2! LOL. Brb~ have errands to run ~__~

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